Today so many of my flaws showed. They seemed to be flying out of me, no matter how I tried to keep them tucked and shoved away where I think they belong. Except I was in too big of a hurry, rushing to the next idea before the one prior to it has had time to properly breathe. That flaw there, that’s a big part of the reason the system sometimes breaks down and I wind up holding the door for a bunch of teenagers with my fly undone and then driving away from a bus full of them with the back hatch open on my car, exposing and endangering all the things I should have unloaded before I set that last box of stuff to teeter dangerously on top... I am not Superwoman or Wonderwoman like my girls were today. I’m just a woman trying to accomplish and provide and give back and be kind and get them fed and create and do good and keep it together and get my hair fixed and keep the car gassed up and sometimes that’s enough. And sometimes I screw it all up. And sometimes I cry in my kids’ pink bedroom while they laugh and play with their daddy before bedtime, a bedtime when neither of them really want me because he seems like more fun...
But lately when little Rosie wants to tell us she loves us, she says “I love you too much,” and today I felt like if I’m passing this much “extra” onto my children, at least the little squirt is using some of it for good (and some of it on her obsession with gum). Because today everything felt like too much...but that love part was my favorite.
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