My husband has spent a great deal of our lives together being the guy, the calming force, the quite supporter behind my passions. He has been the man who uses his vacation from work to drive with me to a show in Nebraska.
He’s the first ears on a new song in the dark of our living room.
He’s the subject of my sunset photographs.
He’s the lifter of things that are too heavy for me to carry.
He’s the one that says, well why not, when I have another elaborate idea.
He’s there sorta half-sleeping at 2 am when I get in from a late night spent singing.
He’s the one who questions it when it needs questioning, applauds it when it needs applauding, feeds it when it needs feeding, sells it when it needs selling and shakes his head when I deserve it…
Because sometimes, even in a marriage, it’s all about boundaries…when to be there and when to leave some space…and how to tell which to chose.
This weekend the band and I had an awesome gig opening for North Dakota born singer and The Voice Contestant Kat Perkins at a concert in our capital city. It was something we’ve been looking forward to for months and a really good reason to wear my leather pants.
It turned out to be quite the evening, drawing thousands of people ready to support a couple North Dakota girls singing their hearts out under a beautiful sky. The guys nailed it, Kat was amazing in every way, the crowd warmed up the chilly air and I busted out some dance moves and managed to not fall on my face on the stage.
It was one of those gigs that was hard to describe. It was so much fun. There was so much energy. We were so happy to be up there on that stage doing what we love to do the most to a crowd that came to have fun.
Now I’ve managed to make singing a part of my career, and as jobs go, it’s not always bring your family to work day. But there are some gigs I can’t do myself, so I need to call in the troops to help sell CDs, make sure my fly is zipped, take some pictures and just generally be there for moral support because I might be, you know, a little nervous about the thousands of people…
When your office is a stage the best part is looking out and seeing the faces of the people who love you smiling back and singing along.
And in the case of Saturday, my bandmates giving their all, my Pops next to me playing harmonica, my mom selling T-shirts and CDs, my friends who drove for miles (one even hopped a plane) to be there to cheer me on and my husband out there snapping photos and ensuring I don’t forget to eventually get my gear from the stage to the car at the end of the night.
Anyway, the day after the show my weekly column was published. I sat down earlier that week and wrote it about the man who has stood behind my passions all these years, many times putting his own aside to make sure that I had someone in the audience, something to photograph, or someone at home who remembered to turn the porch light on…
Life is such a balancing act in so many ways. In our work we can lose ourself. In our passions we can become selfish. In our love we can become resentful.
My husband has a theory that marriage is all about doing everything you can to make the other person happy. Love is finding joy in other people’s joy.
It’s an easy concept but not one that’s always easily implemented. We all know this. We all argue and fight and huff about the little things that seem big at the time. Sock folding and dinner making and tracking mud in on the floor. And then there’s the big things, ones that seem unresolvable. We all have those too.
But this past month I have seen my husband take a breath a bit and decide to grab a hold of something he loves and sort of lose himself in it in order to find himself again.
I could go on about this now, about how when we live with someone we notice the shifts and changes, the ebbs and flows, the worry, but I won’t.
All I will say is that I would give a thousand nights like Saturday night if it were the only way to see that man do the things he loves and spend time being completely and utterly himself…the way he encourages me to be.
But I know it doesn’t work that way. I know my happiness is his too. And I just hope he knows it goes both ways…
Coming Home: Time to rekindle passions after long seasons of work
by Jessie Veeder
Saturday was outstanding. Great to se your Dad and meet your mother and the guy you wrote about. The mosqiutio bite while freezing your ass off happened up in the stands, too.
It is great Jessie that the two of you find that “balance” in your relationship…keep that going…:-) Rich
That’s wonderful the both of you realize the importance of supporting each other and live your lives the way you do. Great post!
So true- my husband and I have been together a long, long time and weathered many storms. He is also a good guy, and that’s what I tell my daughter- marry a nice man, a good person. And that whole thing about making the other person happy- it is not easy at all, but that’s the glue that keeps it all together.
You seem to have an amazing life, and I loved the description of the support you get as a performer. That’s awesome.
A whole lotta love in this post 🙂 MJ
Great to know there still exists the quintessential American Man! A true One-of-a-kind. Increasingly a rarity nowadays, but you know it when you see it! And I’m truly not trying to disparage anyone else. I’m just fully appreciating this post!