We are honing in pretty close to a new year and ringing it in by, you know, bringing in a new house. It seems to be a pattern for us, making big changes at the end of the year. Three years ago we closed on our first home and spent the next two years renovating it during any spare time we were granted. Last year, on December 30th to be exact, we signed it away, every brick, board and painstakingly varnished door and have spent the next three hundred and fifty-some days between then and now planning how we might look in our new house.
It’s funny how quickly three hundred and fifty-some days go by when you spend it with your eye on the future while still trying to be all the things you need and want to be in the present.
And in those days, in those moments, we have been many things: cooks, cowboys, fly-swatters, lawn-mowers, photographers, poets, travelers, an uncle and an aunt, friends and big mistake-makers.
We have been dreamers and planners, singers and wanderers, sun bathers and bundled up for the cold.
On the weekends we were lazy, party-goers or two people making pancakes together in the kitchen as the light streamed through the window. And sometimes we were on a mission, to tear something old down, to clean something up, to pull weeds or cut the grass…living and busting our asses in the present for a more cleaned up tomorrow.
And sometimes our only mission was one another.
The hair on our head grew, some turned gray. Our favorite jeans turned into work pants, things were lost and never found and then, to our surprise, things that we thought were gone for good were recovered.
We’ve had conversations, countless conversations, about family and life and where we might be two years, ten years, fifty years from now. We have remembered together where we once were and laughed at how different things can be in just a short three hundred and fifty some days.
We have counted our blessings.
Yes, we have had some time to prepare for this change that is right around the corner, for a move, for the plan we had all along. Three hundred and fifty-some days to build new walls and roads and move some dirt and snow and rocks and trees and old equipment out-of-the-way, fitting a little work, a little planning into the spaces of time between breakfast and dinner at night… and still we’re not quite ready. The day doesn’t hang on long enough for us to find the right place for every nail, just as it doesn’t quite hold onto the light long enough to allow us to be all of the things we want to be, all the things we can be, in a day.
In a year.
In a lifetime.
There’s never enough time, the work is never done, all the lessons will never quite be learned. And there were days in there that I didn’t want to move away from the little stream of light that peeked through the curtains of my tiny room. There were days my head was spinning with the to-d0 list and the realization that there may be dreams of ours that just won’t come true.
I keep a few of those days in my pocket to take out when I need them. Just a few.
Because I have never been one to focus on the things I cannot change, at least not for very long. Because some of those things we cannot control have been the best things…the most certain things of all.
Like how the sun always rises over the barn
and falls on the other side of the earth behind my parents house.
Reminding us that we can build houses, and fences and plant potatoes in the earth and drive down roads we’ve built to take us to places we’ve never been and places we need to go to survive, but in the whole wide world there is nothing more important than that big wide sky and the fact that, for another day, we get to live under it as it moves and changes and puts on a show.
And as we have been counting each time it rises, marking our calendars and making plans that are bound to fail at some point, it comforts me, it lifts a little bit of weight off of my shoulders to know that the sun only has one mission, day after day…
to rise and shine and make its way across the sky…
Because, you know, we’re not that different from the sun really.
At least three hundred and fifty-some days a year…
I love your photos! I’m using this same template on my WordPress blog, but my photos are smaller. How did you get larger photos? Thanks!
Hi Teresa, I use Flickr to share my photos on wordpress. You can choose the size you want to share on Flickr and then link them up via a URL link. Using Flickr lets you upload and share as many pictures as you like! I hope that helps…
Beautiful pics and writing once again. I bet in some ways you are feeling blessed w/ the nice weather. Wishing you the most wonderful Christmas season. Many blessings every day. Nicole
Jessie Your photos are soooo remarkable. Also just read some of your stuff in On Second Thought. In no time you will achieve Rock Star status 🙂 Congrats on the house….and enjoy the days because they do fly by.
Thank you for this post! It’s like a breath of fresh country air here in my stagnant city office. The Ranch does my soul good.
Thanks for warm and inspiring reflections and lovely pics, always 🙂
You are so right honey, your words are like peace! c
How peaceful and soothing – thanks Jessie
Your next big change is about a half-hour out … 😉
Thank you for sharing so many different things. The beautiful photographs that you pay attention to. Your life and dreams……and best of all your thoughts and poetry……….Wishing you a wonderful life in your new home.gg
You make some amazing photos! I always look forward to you words and images.
It was a pleasure meeting you both this morning … You have a wonderful home site … Enjoy your new home!
I love the sky hereeeeeeeeeeeeee >v<
Your posts are so inspiring.. reading them a world away.. and yet they resonate so strongly. The ease and seemingly effortless writing, where you let us into your life, what you see and you do and where you live is fascinating! My very much heartfelt thanks for your time, energy and passion! Sarah Louise xx